mood-swing?

yes. i feel depressed. i cnt breath. i cnt think straight. i feel like throwing things to people. everyday things get harder for me. each day that pass by, i dnt feel the excitement to live. i dnt miss anyone and i dnt love anyone. thats how it suppose to be. but i should be grateful to GOD for giving me opportunity to live, to breath for 13 solid years. alhamdulillah(: but sometimes 'ragam manusia' make me sick. real sick. i dnt expect much. i dnt expect you to understand me. that is too much to ask for. i know. can i just go far-far-far away from here? :( leave everything behind. a new fresh. and its suppose to be all about me. not you, not anyone else. now i know, life is difficult. it isnt like a fairytale story where you have to suffer first and then your prince charming will come and give you a true love kiss. and live happily ever after. bullshit. to have a little hope wont do any harm right? but i guess hope is just more than bullshit. i will follow the flows. and i am thankful to GOD for giving me life, for giving me a good life, a good family and wonderful friends. (: and yes from now on, its all about me. if u dont like me, thats your problem. and if i dnt like you, its my problem. talk bad about other people wont make u feel calm. wont make u feel better. the fact is, when u talk bad about him/her its just you're jealous of them. u feel insecure because they are a lot better than you. thats the damn fact. yes i talk bad about people and im sorry. im not an angel and im not GOD. im just a human being who make mistakes and still learn to be a better person. thats all. think hard on this people. because each one of us DID this. thank you.

the one who feels down to earth,
hagemaru